Identity is the word running through my mind today.
Identity: The fact of being who or what a thing is. Fact: a thing that is known or to be true. True: loyal or faithful. I love to look at a definition not to find the meaning but for meaning, does that make sense?
Maybe finding my purpose I need to start with my identity – who I really am.
Who is this child of God who is overly sensitive, OCD, very sentimental, overachiever, loving, kind, good mess saved by Her Father-child?
Where am I and who am I- really?
I recently traveled through where I was born. My dad was there and met me for dinner(he was visiting doesn’t live there.)
We went to go have dinner and the restaurant was right next to the hospital where I was born. It was not planned, it just happened!
I have only been back there 2 times since I left 42 years ago. Once when I was 40 and then when I was 50. It was where I took my first breath and started this journey!
51 years later I’m just now trying to figure why those first breaths took place. Why has it taken so long to stop and look at me, life – crazy life!
I didn’t know God for many years.
Fact: I spent many years looking for my identity in others.
True: My smiles for many years hid what was really inside. I was not faithful and loyal to God or myself!
Maybe I need to not look at where I came from but how I came to be! (OK, I know my identity is in Christ but this is deeper, ok?)
My identity hasn’t always been in Him and I haven’t been all smiles my life-just saying! There has always been a part of me that has wanted to share the real me with others.
To be that open book not afraid to say what I really think! My story is what has made me today but there were MANY trails I should have avoided and didn’t!
Maybe it’s time to take another first to breathe again and let it all out!
My story isn’t as bad as others but it’s mine!
Time to really meet Kathleen Beatrice (can’t turn back now, I even shared my middle name- don’t call me Bea, OK?)
Me, all smiles with not a fear in the world…