Identity: The fact of being who or what a thing is. Fact: a thing that is known or to be true. True: loyal or faithful. I love to look at a definition not to find the meaning but for meaning, does that make sense?

Maybe finding my purpose I need to start with my identity – who I really am.

Who is this child of God who is overly sensitive, OCD, very sentimental, overachiever, loving, kind, good mess saved by Her Father-child?

Where am I and who am I- really?

I recently traveled through where I was born. My dad was there and met me for dinner(he was visiting doesn’t live there.)

We went to go have dinner and the restaurant was right next to the hospital where I was born. It was not planned, it just happened!

I have only been back there 2 times since I left 42 years ago. Once when I was 40 and then when I was 50. It was where I took my first breath and started this journey!

51 years later I’m just now trying to figure why those first breaths took place. Why has it taken so long to stop and look at me, life – crazy life!

I didn’t know God for many years.

Fact: I spent many years looking for my identity in others.

True: My smiles for many years hid what was really inside. I was not faithful and loyal to God or myself!

Maybe I need to not look at where I came from but how I came to be! (OK, I know my identity is in Christ but this is deeper, ok?)

My identity hasn’t always been in Him and I haven’t been all smiles my life-just saying! There has always been a part of me that has wanted to share the real me with others.

To be that open book not afraid to say what I really think! My story is what has made me today but there were MANY trails I should have avoided and didn’t!

Maybe it’s time to take another first to breathe again and let it all out!

My story isn’t as bad as others but it’s mine!

Time to really meet Kathleen Beatrice (can’t turn back now, I even shared my middle name- don’t call me Bea, OK?)

Me, all smiles with not a fear in the world…

What does that look like? What kind of talent has God created in me that I can use to help others hear Him?

I can’t sing (well, I sure can alone in my car.)

I can’t play a musical instrument (when I was little my piano teacher told me she had kindergartners better than me.)

I struggle with the technical side of writing (trust me, I know my grammar falls short, a story on that later.)

I watched beautiful dancers spread God’s word yesterday through dance so beautifully it made me cry (I can cut a rug but you’re not gonna cry, you will laugh.)

What talent do I have in me to be creative in order that I can inspire people to hear God?

If we are made in the image of God and He is the most talented, creative person – shouldn’t all of us have some of His creative genes in us being His children?

I just feel in my heart that in order to find my purpose, I need to find the art inside of me that I’m designed for- that gene that my Father gave me when He created me!!!

P.S. I tried to master the Harmonica when I was little – no talent there, but I did look good in my imitation rabbit fur coat, don’t ya think?

I talked about laying it all at His feet that – I’m His and my identity is in Him!!! (Ok… I was listening to the Lauren Daigle song “You Say”)

It was so good y’all and then I did something wrong and in a moment it was just gone and I couldn’t get it back!!! Isn’t that how things go in life?? Like yesterday, it’s gone – and we can’t get it back!!!!

What we say is gone – and we can’t take it back. We did something – and we can’t take it back!! We hurt someone – and we can’t take it back!

We all get each day to do right by God!! And others!! To make the most of our life!!

Today, I’m going to watch my steps and look at what I do and say and see how I spend those moments!!

Maybe that’s what some of this season of my life is about, I feel like it’s slipping away and I want to make the most of it!!

I just need to remember that God is control of my steps and my direction – not me!! He has a great plan for me!!!

I need to make the most of wherever He takes me!

The weekend away has caused me to be behind. Deadlines at work, errands to run, and paperwork that HAS to be done in order for our business to run are just to name a few! I sat up in bed and took a moment to read my devotional and it was about being still!

The 1st one mentions not being able to see the sunrise or sunset where he lives due to all the buildings in the way and that he must stop and go to the country in order to capture the beauty!

We removed our buildings this weekend and captured the sunset, it was good! I know I place a lot of things- important things- in front of God…maybe my first task is to put him first.

I mentioned sunset but not sunrise this weekend because we didn’t get up in time – you snooze you lose!

In order to hear God & find my purpose – I must spend time with Him! Time to put the word 1st. I will set an alarm to get up 30 min early to read his word and capture it like a beautiful sunrise! No more snoozing and loosing!

Tonight, I will focus on going to sleep early in order to get up earlier- for now, I’m off and running!

I got this bracelet as a birthday gift along with the mug.. coincidence .. I think NOT!!

The bus reminds me of a free spirit ready to roam the world, someone young at heart ready to take on an adventure- Dreaming OUTLOUD!

This birthday, I believe God is reminding me that I should never stop dreaming (no matter what my age) except I should not just dream but speak the dream – OUTLOUD!!

I have fallen short of speaking my dreams.. only because I’m not sure what my dream is – my purpose!!

I’m setting a goal.. a one-year goal to find my dream and speak it – OUTLOUD!

How bout you?

Do you speak your dreams or just live the day by day?